Updated: Jun 9, 2019
My new journey started a year ago when I saw all the dirty things in almost all sorts of religions. Take note, I'm not an atheist. I would like to believe that I'm an agnostic. Someone who still believes in God and the Bible but NOT ANYMORE in any religion.
I grew up as a Roman Catholic who studied at some well-known Catholic schools like La Concordia College and San Felipe Neri Parochial School, then went to a Christian school where I became an altar server and a Lector and Commentator in some of the churches in our community.
I also used to be a chef for priests. I can still vividly recall when I started to grow my hair long and had a tattoo, most of the priests saw it but didn't care at all. Until the Head Priest told me to cut my hair, and I asked him, 'Why?' He said that it's not good for people to see that I have long hair and a tattoo. Months later, the Head Priest kicked me out and I thought that it was not right to kick someone out of church on the basis of having long hair and a visible tattoo.
My journey continued and along the way, I came across this blog that aided my understanding: https://m.imgur.com/gallery/72RuE. I learned about the four (broad) quadrants of Theological positions: 1) Theist, 2) Atheist, 3) Agnostic and 4) Gnostic.
I FURTHER surfed the internet for people serving the church with cases like mine and I stumbled to an Agnostic Community. Mind you, that was a very important starting point because I then learned that agnostic and atheist are two different things. People who identify themselves as atheist don't believe in God or any form of a God at all; they believe in nothing remotely paralleling religion or a higher power. People identifying themselves as agnostic can actually be really spiritual.
And so I figured, just because we don't believe in a God doesn't mean we don't believe in anything. It just means that we don't believe there is a religion that has the answer; and WE JUST TRY TO LIVE OUR LIVES.