Updated: Aug 10, 2019
"I would never feel better. Other people are even making me feel worse. Nobody seems to care," such are the words repeatedly uttered by someone I know who has long been suffering from depression. Oh! How I felt for her. But despite my constant "hang in there!" approach and being a smart lady, coupled with supportive long-time friends; there was no way you could make her change her attitude, given her mental condition. She acts indifferent and yet so vulnerable.
Clinical depression, defined as a mental health problem, is a life-long battle. Sad to say, there is no cure for it -- just like how a child with special needs can only be treated to a certain degree.
Depending on the seriousness of the case, the good news is there are various kinds of medical care available for mental health sufferer. Sadly, while many did fight and easily escape, safe and sound, right through what seems to them a haze in a maze; some are left running around for a length of time, bruised and wounded all over, before they are able to find their way out; still, others fail to manage and just totally give up.
Listening to a documentary video hosted by Dr. Brene Brown, a research professor at the University of Houston, it made me realize all the more the value of owning one's emotions, and making them known especially to the persons involved or whoever gets directly affected by them -- no matter how others would judge you for having done so. But the thing is, you don't need to put the blame on others, not even to yourself. You can actually take charge and accept how you feel. You agree to be seen to display your Achilles heel and all your vulnerabilities. You might have to try telling this to yourself, (albeit with some amount of effort) "I will not waste my time hurting myself and others, especially the ones I love most." You sort of turn it into a daily mantra and start seeing a glimpse of hope, for you realize that this is not just your battle. You see the people that matter most to you in the big picture. You get some inspiration from them and take it from there. Little by little, day in day out, somehow you learn to get by and live life as normally as possible.
Indeed, keeping one's faith in the midst of hardships, is something meant for us to be proud of, not hide-for not everyone can go through the dark pit of depression and yet, remain strong and confident.
The Good News Bible points out exactly the same thing. 2Corinthians 12: 9-10 states "My grace is all you need, for my power is greatest when you are weak." Therefore, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and difficulties, for Christ's sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
The day I learned about having lost my youngest sister to a car accident, way back in the year 2004, it had the most depressing impact on my being. I felt like losing a limb, literally unable to move at the moment. "Could somebody tell me this is not true?," I told myself. We grew up close to each other and she was one person I trust the most. I had questioned God at once. How could He just decide to take someone so important in my life? Then, crisis after another crisis, took place in our family.
Eventually, I succumbed to depression -- my Faith shaken. Until I surrendered myself to GOD and confessed to Him, wholeheartedly and honestly, that I can't make it on my own. I needed Him to make me understand and see clearly. Slowly but surely, I felt the healing power of Someone over me -- the desire to move on with my life, almost despite myself. HE has heard my plea and gave me the strength I needed.
Some days, life still seems unfair, but not for long when it's driven by purpose. Believing that we are not alone in this journey gives us the power to keep going. You simply have to acknowledge the fact that you are someone worthy of belonging. The next time you find yourself stuck in the middle of depression, ask yourself, "Am I really a lone victim in this struggle? or "Am I not hurting people close to me in the process?" Consider your Inner Self.
The author is a graduate of B.S. Psychology and previously worked as a preschool teacher in private schools. She also has a background in Special Education, particularly on Children with Autism. She likes reading inspirational and non-fiction books on various topics. During her leisure time, she enjoys cooking, singing and zumba dancing.